Tuesday, July 09, 2002
So I am writing in here for my poor little souls who are stuck working in the Hillel and aren't lucky enough to sit at home and stew like I am. I have a headache. A headache that hasn't quit for days. But even bigger than my headache is the work ache that I get when I sit around and think about it. I hate my job for the last couple of days. I don't know if it is my sickness...but either way...I am so tired of my hum-drum life at the Jewish agency that is my demise. I am tired. I am sick and I am bored. All I have been saying lately is that I am "bored". What has happened? Am I actually getting itchy despite my perfect, non-important, EASY life?
I had an INCREDIBLE birthday. Everyone did what they could to make it exceptional...and let me say...it was one of the best times of my life. At one point...Kelly noticed that I hadn't even begun to start drinking and she says: "Joe...I don't know what to do with you ...drink!" It's just that I felt a NATURAL high that I haven't felt in so long. I was happy. Just plain happy to be alive and to have my friends be everything to me that I needed them to be. I felt special for the day. I felt happiness pure and true. My friends did that for me.
I had Penelope, Mariah, Kelly, Rita, Angie...all in the same place for the same reason...me!
I will write more about my day when my head doesn't hurt so bad.
Man...it was just about the best.
Boston was perfect. Will write more about that later as well. But to be honest.. Paul may not know how to give gifts...as will be explained later...but he is so in love with me and that means more than any present he could give. The kid literally would do anything just to see me smile. He LOVES me. How weird is it to be so loved by someone?
Very fucking weird.
He loves me. I want to write it a thousand times. He loves me like no one has ever loved me. A very pure and real love . A love that is honest and jealous. A blatant and true love. Man...I lucked out with this one.
Headache...
I have the day off tomorrow because I feel like garbage. Why am I even writing in this? Prolly cuz of boredom and because I want to communicate with my co-worker Penelope. I am hanging with her this weekend. I hope she will have me over.
Rita and Kelly are off on vacation for a week and I will be all alone. I went on and on about how excited I am to be alone and to do what I want to do...but to be honest...I am a little sad. I will be alone and lonely. Penelope...get ready for some Joe time. Mariah is out of town in Cape Cod. Joe is home, alone, sad, and relying on the only friend he has. Don't get me wrong...I LOVE hanging with P. She is bomb shit and I would chill with her anyway...regardless of vactations...but still....she is going to have to work overtime to keep my emotions in check. I NEED her next week. NEED. :(
Love me k?
Head pounding...must leave computer...I love you all.
thank you for being my fwiend. I appreicate all of you. Sorry my head hurts.
Snarf.
I had an INCREDIBLE birthday. Everyone did what they could to make it exceptional...and let me say...it was one of the best times of my life. At one point...Kelly noticed that I hadn't even begun to start drinking and she says: "Joe...I don't know what to do with you ...drink!" It's just that I felt a NATURAL high that I haven't felt in so long. I was happy. Just plain happy to be alive and to have my friends be everything to me that I needed them to be. I felt special for the day. I felt happiness pure and true. My friends did that for me.
I had Penelope, Mariah, Kelly, Rita, Angie...all in the same place for the same reason...me!
I will write more about my day when my head doesn't hurt so bad.
Man...it was just about the best.
Boston was perfect. Will write more about that later as well. But to be honest.. Paul may not know how to give gifts...as will be explained later...but he is so in love with me and that means more than any present he could give. The kid literally would do anything just to see me smile. He LOVES me. How weird is it to be so loved by someone?
Very fucking weird.
He loves me. I want to write it a thousand times. He loves me like no one has ever loved me. A very pure and real love . A love that is honest and jealous. A blatant and true love. Man...I lucked out with this one.
Headache...
I have the day off tomorrow because I feel like garbage. Why am I even writing in this? Prolly cuz of boredom and because I want to communicate with my co-worker Penelope. I am hanging with her this weekend. I hope she will have me over.
Rita and Kelly are off on vacation for a week and I will be all alone. I went on and on about how excited I am to be alone and to do what I want to do...but to be honest...I am a little sad. I will be alone and lonely. Penelope...get ready for some Joe time. Mariah is out of town in Cape Cod. Joe is home, alone, sad, and relying on the only friend he has. Don't get me wrong...I LOVE hanging with P. She is bomb shit and I would chill with her anyway...regardless of vactations...but still....she is going to have to work overtime to keep my emotions in check. I NEED her next week. NEED. :(
Love me k?
Head pounding...must leave computer...I love you all.
thank you for being my fwiend. I appreicate all of you. Sorry my head hurts.
Snarf.
